Thursday, June 25, 2009

Whining... in numbers.

38 - Hours I went without talking to a human (the dog doesn't count) until this morning, except via texting. And there were only about 4 of those.

15 - Days until I have to be moved into the new house. Haven't packed a thing.

7 - Days that BF and I have been broken up, and it's not getting any easier.

1 - Day until what would have been our 1 year anniversary. Probably the reason it's not getting easier.

5 - Number of miles between my new house and exBF's house. When I got the house, thought it would be an awesome thing, now it sucks balls. I do not need daily reminders of him as I'm driving home.

1 - Number of empty wine bottles in my trash can, consumed from 6:30 - 9:30 last night.

3 - Number of empty Natural Lite beer cans next to the wine bottle, consumed after the aforementioned wine was gone. (Don't judge on the cheap beer).

10 to 31 - days until I get MP back from her dad's. The first game plan was for him to keep her until July 5th, now he's trying to keep her until July 25th. I really don't think I can hold out that long. I've only seen her for two days since June 3rd, and I'm dying.

Sorry for all the woe-is-me bitching. It's just a really bad time for me right now. I know things will get better, and I've been through worse life experiences than this, but I also know it takes time, and I wish it didn't. I'm just so sick of being sad.


Anonymous said...

Awwwww. I'm sorry that you are having a hard time. {{{{{ hugs}}}}

Crystal said...

that sucks, ad. i am sorry.

if you need help moving, let me know. i have a truck and a friend who will do anything for a six pack of beer.

Candice said...

I want to take you out for a drink or two. Sounds like you need that.

Too bad we can't fastforward time to when it doesn't hurt anymore, huh?

Samsmama said...

Oh, Amber, I'm so sorry. What's your address so I can send you 20 bucks? We will not be having you mourn over Natural Lite!

Hope MP gets back sooner rather than later. You need some love from your baby!

Amber D. said...

You guys are awesome, thanks. I know we're all basically strangers on here, but getting to vent is therapeutic.

Don't worry, I plan on going out to celebrate our anniversary tonight, with my girlfriend, and we're going to listen to a live band, drink too much, and probably be inappropriate.

Just like all of you. I'll do you proud. :)

calicobebop said...

I'm so sorry. I wish I could send you virtual alcohol. :( Good luck with the move thing - I'm suffering through that myself and all I can say is that it won't last forever.