As if I don't doubt my parenting skills on an hourly basis ANYWAY, my daughter told her sitter today that she wanted to go to the park, to which the sitter replied that it's too cold and to wait until it warms up, when your mom gets here. MP replied, "No, she won't take me to the park anyway, all she wants to do is sleep. And then her and her boyfriend will go to a bar. She doesn't want to hang out with me."
Mom of the year, right here. I can't believe a human 23 years younger than me and two feet shorter can make me feel like the biggest piece of shit on the planet.
I think I'm doing my best, and I know her comments were probably just for attention, but it really makes me wonder if I'm screwing her up for life. I guess I'll just marry someone off a dating website so she can have a more stable environment to live in. There are literally not enough hours in the day for me to work full time, run errands, cook dinner, do homework, bath, quality time, etc. with MP, and NOT be tired. I'm tired all.the.time. Add in trying to maintain a relationship with BF and my friends... I have no energy. I go to bed the same time as MP (if I'm not still doing chores), and that's ridiculous. I'm too young to feel this old.
To top that off, BF and I got in a huge fight last night and aren't speaking. Normally I'm the happiest girl alive on Fridays (hence my blog title), but today is just fucking bad. Real fucking bad.
PS - In my defense, I haven't been out in over two weeks. I have sat my happy ass at home every night with MP, helping her play her guitar and watching SpongeBob and making necklaces out of the crafts kit that Santa brought her. Guess she forgets all about that when she's dogging me out to everyone that will listen. :)
Sorry about the rant. I needed to vent to someone other than TM.